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[05 Sep 2005|08:41pm] |
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Wow this weekend was great and was much needed! Friday morning Me Jesus Marco and Chris set out to San Marcos for the weekend. we left at 5am so arrived round three showered changed hung out with my beeker took mad shots(mcormicks baby) headed to austin chilled at Daniels with Amanda, Gina, Teresa, Beeker, Rene and I cant really remember who else cuz I suppose I was so tired I completely crashed out at bout 1130 and didnt wake up til the next morning. HEH I was ashamed! Then drove to San Antonio to my sweet chinchillas apartment made huevos con chorizo which we could not eat being disgustingly hung over. took a shower then slept till 10 pm (ya that was great) Then was forcefully put into a car and driven to San Marcos (lol) went to my brothers dorm waited for him and Jenny to get ready Chris and Gerber showed up then went to Carols dorm picked her up then drove to Austin, got lost drive round packed 6th street. Finally found the party we were looking for chilled for a lil bit saw some old school faces, Ryan M., Izak, Raul, BInky, Erika G., Lorraine, and alotta UT kids that I didnt know. Then caught a ride with Izak, Jesus n Carol drove to some aptrments (campus estates?) chilled ahd a shot and a drink,drove to Jack-in-the-crack,(lol where the Miners at)freakin jenny! Drove to Izaks apartment chilled and ate, was headed to 6th street but instead went to another party at the one and only David Fierros house! Saw some SUUUPER old school faces Joanna B, David, Steve T,Eddie,Abel and alotta 02 faces! Stopped drinkin round 7 fell asleep woke up round 11 chatted with David. Mario picked me up drove back to San antonio showered chilled and watched Chapelle's show all day , picked up Vic n Jenny from Six Flags, chilled at my loves apartment and smoked hookah! Got crazy light headed went to eat at Chipotle(vic and his loofa LMAO)got crazy full off of some damn good burritos! Drove to Jacks and watched Subrosa tear shit up!!!! Fucking amazing set! Drove back to my loves apartment got mad cuz i had to leave drove Vic n Jenny back to San Marcos said goodbye.=( My love drove me to Marcos bros apartment said goodbye ='( drank beers and chilled. Watched some TV finally fell asleep woke up at 11, got ready waited for Chris got in the car and drove back home to EL Paso! I had such a great weekend I love Austin soo much! Hope I can live there some day! so pics in the next entry but ya this weekend was the shiznit!!!!!!!
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And so it begins...
Another year another school!
I've been so preoccupied with everyone leaving that I've...
I can't write at the moment!
FUCK SCHOOL
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I'm again stuck in between what is and isnt.
But this time it's BOTH!
It's warmth and compassion;
It's trust and laughter, that little spark of humor!
The never ending nights of wondering "where am I gonna sleep tonite?"
I'm trying to make somthing out of a cardboard box, which is slowing tearing apart and will eventually collapse!
Not once did I believe my opinion could make such an impact!
I'm sorry! I'd tell you the truth, but my greatest fear is that you'll laugh it off.
And I will slowly tear u apart! I'll be crushed from the outcome, but sadly thats how the cycle works!
Unless this is it?! It couldnt be!
To choose would be unbearable!
But then again who else can stand to wallow as much as I can?!
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None of that made sense so please disreguard it! In fact close this shit already! It's rotting your brain!!
I'm SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| The Floor is yours. Welcome back! |
[02 Aug 2005|10:43am] |
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It has been a while. BUt its summer I'm taking in the dayz.
My conclusion...
but I went to warped tour when I was in the 7th or 8th grade
and it changed me
my sis played on the local stage so i wwas walking round by myself
and just the energy the kids the look the aggression
I mean I loved it! It made me realize that I dont have to be the skinniest or the prettiest or any of that shit
I could just jump into a pit and listen to this band and know that all the kids around me were feeling the same thing
I know it sounds weird
but I swear that music changed everything
I was able to take my imperfections out with the music
I love punk rock
I love everything about it
i love being able to not give a shit!!!!!!
It's simple! But I live for it!
Day by day!!! I wanna get into the crowd, I wanna hear it played real loud!!!!
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| GOTTA GET OUT! |
[16 Jun 2005|09:26pm] |
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I love this!
Going to the same old places, skipping like a broken record, I love you all but I gotta get out and change this scenery. I've got to find what I'm living for, I've got to change this life that I'm living. Nowhere to run from myself, no where to hide from the truth. I tried to find someone, someone who knew, somebody to give myself to. I learned the hard way, when you give yourself away you give away your life too. Nowhere to run from myself, nowhere to hide from the truth. I tried to find someplace that seemed right for me,, I walked the streets until i lost my mind and that was the best place to bem when i lost my mind the truth set me free.
We out we out
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[16 Jun 2005|08:57pm] |
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Funny how last weekend SUCKED but this weeks been pretty fun! Gee's going away shindig was hella fun driving from bones, to marcos, to pauls I love party hopping! CRazy it was the same party just moved 3 times! lovely.Went with Mike n Mikey to a show it was pretty fun and cheap even better!Saw A Black Letter(pos of course)with their incredibly new line up(woo Mike n Noe`),AWSOME(AZ)good band reminds me of Red Light Sting without the key board and a girl, Victoria Drive,(too cute, emaculate drummer)and some other band which i cant recall the name.I hope to see good things from Victoria Drive as they progress,good musicians. Reminds me I gotta move out to AZ! ELise I'm commin with ya! Today took some accuplacer test at UTEP and was quite pleased with my writing and reading scores ha! and I hope tonite is fun may not be Cancun but it'll be fun!
*** Talked to my Ohioan Matt ='(** Hope to talk to the rest of the Ohioans soon!
This entry sucks ! Until next time! I'm out!
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| AQUABATS!!!! |
[14 Jun 2005|12:07pm] |
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So AQUABATS is tomarrow and Im REALLY pissed cuz I dont think I can go! If anyone finds INFO on where i can get a ticket this late! Or if their even selling tickets PLEASE let me know!!!!! ASAP!!! It's the Aquabats for petes sake!!!!!!!!
I MUST GO!!! DAMN MICHELLE!!!!! I WANNA GO TO!!!!!
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[13 Jun 2005|08:21pm] |
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**BEFORE ANYTHING: MARS VOLTA ROCKED MY FUCING SOCKS!!!! THEY WERE AMAZING! BUT THEN AGAIN, WHEN ARENT THEY?!**
So this weekend pretty much sucked well it was jus boring! Friday was my birthday for those of u who know me well, you know I have HORRIBLE luck with birthdays! And of course nothing ever changes! I got two awsome cards one my mom home made with Hello Kitty stickers n stars! ( I loved it!) and another that perfectly described me(lol) from Jackie and Robert! And the little Carebare that I had been wanting since feburary from Jackie n Robert! Thanks guyz! The day was like any other just drove round all day nothin to do! Went to eat later that nite with my parents then went to Sams graduation party, got in an argument with Mike. Took off went to visit Nairda then went home! Saturday basicly same deal nothin to do drove round for a few hours chilled with Andy then went home! Yesterday went to a cookout with my niece then went to Ale HOuse couldnt get in(surprise surprise) called Eric did nothin drove round then watched tv at erics then went home! This weekend basicly sucked!!! And here I am monday nite been home ALLL DAMN DAY! STill bored!!!!!!! but cancun was fun! lol
Pos I'm bored gonna go find somthin to do or someone to bug!
I'm OUT!
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| NOw i remember why i hated summer... |
[13 Jun 2005|08:07pm] |
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SO its back to summer here in El Paso! Cancun was the fucking SHIT!!!! I had soooo much fun! We wnet snorkling, saw sharks face to face and sting rays! Danced on a cruise! Went to the best clubs, COCO BONGO, THE CITY!!!!! Me,Sam and Janell danced our asses off and even got filmed by HBO! The ocean was BEAUTIFUL! On the last day me,Carol, Elsa and Megan, stayed up and watched the sunrise on the beach, it was the most breath taking experience ever! We met some people from ohio(Megan,Britt,Craig,Matt n Bret)! I miss them!!!! Drank it up (u know how we do) played bullshit and just talked! Went bar hopping went to Senor Frogs, got some badass dos xx's hats n beads!! Got my toungue pierced (yay)! NO hook ups jus spooning!! LOL Had the best room, with a HUGE balcony to ourselves plus great view! I got a killer tan and some how managed to lose 10 lbs!!(i didnt eat very much over there!) Danced on the bar at THE CITY all nite!!!! OUr last day was spent at FAT TUESDAY in honor of my birthday! HUGE beach party! We got into VIP and met Jaquese from the Real World San Diego and got to meet a few members of the new cast from the Real World Austin! Saw soo many iguanas (yuck!)!! I had an AWSOME TIME! even though shit went down I still love all my Cancun buddies : Carol,Mike,Ryan,Elsa,Sarah,Lily,Sam,Janell,Sarahi,Amanda,Gina,Jenny! I love my OHIOANS too: Brittany,Megan, Craig, Bret and Matt!!!!
I'gonna miss the entire week that the city never slept!! I LOVE CANCUN!
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| HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! |
[10 Jun 2005|06:35pm] |
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JUNE 10Th BABY!
(this song brings back memories)
It's my birthday and I'll do what I want to
Fuck you it's my birthday.
A special holiday only for me, so do what I say,
it's my party, I'll make you cry if I want to...or leave.
Fuck you, it's not your birthday, so do what I say.
For 24 hours your wishing me well
364 days I'm in hell, Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
alone on my Birthday,
I'm going to Denny's 10 times today
No Tip! it's my birthday, so do what I say
How could you forget my birthday?
That's really immature
Fuck you for forgetting my birthday
you didn't do what I say
24 hours no wishing well
now 365 days I'm in Hell, Oh well.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me, Spank Me!
Oh well, Happy Birthday to me,
I can't believe you forgot my birthday
it's my birthday and you're wrecking it
now it's just like any other day
you didn't do what I say
How could you forget my birthday?
That's really immature...
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| A day to end all days! |
[26 May 2005|08:50am] |
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So todays the day!
Hope it's awsome!! BUt I'm going to miss EVERYONE!!!
PLease know you all have made a huge impact in my life! I'll never forget you class of 2005!
I love you guyz!!! Cancun here we come!!!!!
Do it...graduation!
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| TO.... my BOYS! |
[21 May 2005|02:08am] |
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Today was almost a completely pleasant day! School was ok (i hate school) but after, I went to my sis's house on the westside chilled with her pups picked up dog crap (ha) and tryed to tan! Then went to Eastwood Middle to perform for their "music under the stars thing" I'm not sure how the performance REALLY was, but I know that was the worst dancing I've ever done! Then spent most of the nite at Lauras 18/graduation party, we swam for a while (yea!) then danced all nite with all the Saltatrix girls! Lionel taught me windmills!! But most of the night was just careless dancing! Finally got to meet somone new Omar? Chilled most of the time with Mendra and finally got to sit and chill with Isaac, while he and all the girls threw mini mints at one another! Then went to Gus's party which was awsome, D.J., vodka and all that good stuff! Then finished the night off chillen with two of my favorite people Eric n Marshall watching the greatest movie...STARSKY and HUTCH! I had an awsome night! Thank you Lionel for letting me use ur towel! LOL!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURITA!!!!!!!
So tonite was a boys nite... so I dedicate this entry (which is pretty stupid but still) to all MY BOYS(that I saw or heard from tonite)...
GUs,Ryan,Jojo,Isaac,Lionel,Eric,John,Marshall,Pier,Sus,Chris,Gilberto,Kurtis,Andy,Nairda,Mike,Bastian,Justin,Kevin,Charles,Alex V,Robbie,Alex I,Phesoj,Joey,Mike M,etc... I love all you guys!!!!!!
G'nite!!! Tomarrow...Wet-n-Wild, Elises,DEMO!!!!
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[19 May 2005|04:33pm] |
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I think too much about everything!!!
This week's been pretty hard to grasp schools almost out finals finish tomarrow! It's quite akward sitting in class only signing yearbooks all day (god bless)! BUt I'm hoping to make the best of the last days that we're here! Went to Sols today with Cindy, Mendra n Isaac. I'm not sure if I'm supposed to be sad or if the whole "high school ending thing" just hasn't hit me yet! I do know that I'm going to miss Elise sooo much! That sounds weird but she's one of my BEST friends and its going to be weird not having her to laugh and get hyper with me all the time! I actually spent time at "The Side" yesterday , of course noone ever goes there anymore, but it was nice to sit there for a few hours and just talk with JOhn, Mikey Nunez n Jackie! As I sat there facing Montwood street all the memories of past faces ran through my head! David,Bobby G,Jason Laler, Sam, Krystal B,all the people I looked up to when I was a freshmen! The spitting contests, skating the stairs, Luna n Whitey, Ice cream lady, newspaper wars, water balloons, swirlies, all those great memories we had just sitting there trying to keep ourselves busy! I know I'm still in denial but Iam really going to miss Jesse and Mike(Nune)!!! OK well this is just me being bored cuz TV is gay and theres nothing else to do!!!!! If somone has a pool I need to swim I'm getting fatter! Maybe somthing exciting will happen in the next few days! But until then! Latz!!!
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We live our lives in our own way never really listened to what they say. The kind of faith that doesn't fade away... we are the TRUE BELIEVERS!
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[15 May 2005|12:26pm] |
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Yesterday I felt like swimming so talked to Mikey Nunez asked if i could go swim n was about to but had to go to the westside to check on my sis casita n perritos. Then Brendita called me asked me if I wanted to go to Sonic Boom with her ( which I had already planned on going but had completely forgot,thanks brenda!)So Got home changed picked up Brenda we finally found the place,would be great to throw a show there! Saw Richie n Vero. Spent the whole day looking at BADASS art, listening to some talented musicians, asking questions! Drinking red bull and just took the time to appreciate all the WONDERFUL talent that we have in El Paso! Brenda and I asked for alot of buisness cards and alot of numbers! Chatted with Jim Ward for a lil bit, was given a demo (I love getting demos from new bands) and a ice cream sandwhich!I really wish Mike n Atom could've been there they woulda LOVED IT! lol So for those you who didn't make it out to Sonic Boom yesterday, you really missed out! There was a panel of people willing to answer any questions bout managing, budgeting, promotions and all that other good stuff! Listening to all those people gave me the push to want to go ahead and try to persue this buisness! It's not going to be easy but, knowing that there are people who are willing to help you out even if it's just with their advice makes a big impact! They do it all for the love...MUSIC! I thought it was a FANTATSIC idea,props to Jim Ward and Marina! We need to have more events like this!
LONG LIVE THE MUSIC!!! CASUALTIES TONITE JTOWN!
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[15 May 2005|11:51am] |
That last entry was pretty depressing but I suppose I was feeling quite down! Reminds me never to drink vodka at 3 in the afternoon!
SO i'm bored as hell n stole this from ALex(sorry)
Put an x to the things youve done:
(x) smoked a cigar (a couple filled with tobacco and plenty of blunts!)
( ) made out with a member of the same sex (nah but ive been hit in quite a few times)
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
(x) skipped school (plenty of times)
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) slept with more than 15 people (0 pple)
( ) been called a slut
(x) had a one night stand
( ) had more than just one one night stands
( ) lied about how many people you've slept with (nah no reason to)
( ) lied about it so you can just sleep with someone (bullshit)
( ) slept with someone you dont even know their name (definatly not my style)
( ) seen someone die (thankfully not)
(x) been in love (of course)
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house (parents house my house same shit)
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back (oh u know it and it definatley sux)
( ) been arrested (close on several occasions, somebody up there loves me)
(x) made out with a stranger (thats what drinking does to you kids!)
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend (some big most small)
( ) had a crush on a teacher (not really sept for that hot cathe sub, but he's jus hot no crush)
( ) had a crush on one of your myspace friends (nah thats not kool)
( ) been to Canada (one day i will amsterdamn baby here i come)
(x) been to Mexico (J teezy 4 sheezy)
(x) been on a plane (i love plain rides)
(x) thrown up in a bar (if ive drank somewhere ive prolly thrown up in it i usually dont know when to stop)
(x) purposely set a part of yourself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi (mmm that sounds damn good right now)
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone in person from myspace. (fuk no)
(x) been moshing at a concert/show (fuck ya)
( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now (definatley both)
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (on a good day)
(x) made a snow angel (everytime it snows)
( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite (kites rock)
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping (i love teh rain specially the smell)
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding (cloudcroft nm)
(x) cheated while playing a game (who hasnt?)
(x) been lonely (for the longest time!! Emphasis on longest, but I'm to balme)
(x) fallen asleep at work/school (3rd prd everyday!i wake up with a red markll over my face)
(x) used a fake id (where else, only mexico)
(x) watched the sun set (hell yes)
( ) felt an earthquake (im down to )
(x) slept beneath the stars (while smoking a blunt)
(x) been tickled (lol of course)
(x) been robbed (putas)
(x) been misunderstood (still to this day i am by many!! IT NEVER ENDS!)
( ) petted a reindeer/goat
( ) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(x) been suspended from school (was expecting to be)
(x) been in a car accident (nothing serious but some lil ones ya)
(x) had braces (yuck)
(x) felt like an outcast (all the time!)
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night (those late night, i'm eating because I'm lonely n depressed sorta things!)
(x) had deja vu (all the time i love it!YAY DEJA!)
(x) danced in the moonlight (and under the stars, only alone though...id be wonderful to have a partner someday!)
(x) hated the way you look (EVERYDAY!!!!!!)
( ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced(cam pretty close but nah, ELISE!)
(x) questioned your heart ( thats the story of my life)
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) been lost (physically, mentally, and spiritually!)
(x) been to the opposite side of the country (SPAIN,BERMUDA,HAWAII)
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying (used to wish for it at months of a time, It's gotten better now)
(x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers (been wanting to)
(x) sung karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins (HAHA sadly!!!)
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't (unfortunately, ive done that alot!)
(x) made prank phone calls
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about (it was awsome)
(x) blown bubbles (I did on friday!)
( ) made a bonfire on the beach (plan to one day)
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating (every fri 5th grade, roller king woop HAHA)
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey (id be down though, monkeys are kool)
(x) worn pearls (how bout just ONE pearl?)
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat food (wasnt bad actually tasted like gravy)
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them (Misha, The hot waiter at rain forest cafe, Jordan the hot paige from midevel times)
( ) kissed a mirror (nah im not that full of myself)
(x) sang in the shower (ALL THE TIME favorite place to sing!)
(x) have a little black dress
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something ( i ate elmers glue in the 1st grade once does tha count for somthin?)
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole (nah ive seen a christmas story...i know what happens)
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top (while smoking a jizza!)
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs (sometimes its good for you)
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel (I can finaly do'em!)
(x) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
(x) stayed up all night (doing what would be a better question haha)
(x) didn’t take a shower for a week (me n Phfat Mike had contest from x-mas til New years, lets jus say I won!)
(x) pick and ate an apple right off the tree (used to at my old house)
(x) climbed a tree (all the time )
( ) had a tree house (always wanted one)
(x) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts (eeeeh those shits scare me)
(x) have more then 30 pairs of shoes (i dunno why I only wear like 2 pairs)
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say (nah im not down for dumb shit like that)
( ) gone streaking (at least not yet)
(x) played ding-dong-ditch (lol)
(x) played chicken (damn Kurtis)
(x) pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
( ) been told you're hot by a complete stranger (I wish)
( ) broken a bone (never)
(x) been easily amused (LOL all the time, I crack myself up)
(x) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn (not interested?)
(x) caught a butterfly (never tryed?)
(x) laughed so hard you cried (all the time im always around alot of pple who can make me laugh)
(x) cried so hard you laughed (confirmation retreat Willie, I love that kid)
( ) mooned/flashed someone
( ) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test (of course)
( ) have a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone’s name (its rare, but ya)
(x) slept naked (feels wonderful)
(x) French braided someone’s hair (ya came out all crappy, sorry Pof LOL)
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool (would like to)
( ) been kicked out your house
That took forever! So I wanna swim someone call me we'll go pool hopping! Until then... PIZZA ROLES!
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[13 May 2005|05:11pm] |
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I'm not sure if it's the thought of leaving or of betrayel(if thats how it's spelled) I'm not sure if it's, (most likely) just me in general!
I believe in my friends I have all the faith in the world in them! I TRUST them no matter what the circumstances might be and I would hope that they would think the same of me, but apparently not! I don't know what they think of me, mainly for the sole purpose because I don't wnat to be reminising all their words the rest of my life! However in their eyes I'm nothing , I'm untrustworthy, I'm disgusting, I'm a druggy, I'm a loser! I'm nothing to the people I care so much for,to the people that I would at the drop of a dime do ANYTHING for! I know they will go on do amazing things meet new people, get on with their lives. But right now I know I can't live with myself or the way I live my life! I can deal with it, but they can't! I want to live FOR them! I want to strive to suceed I want to HELP! I'm ignorant I'm heartless, I'm a back stabber thats what I see when I look at them , thats the signal they send to me with their blank smiles and unsympathetic responses! I'm sorry! I wish I could be everything to everyone! I wish I could be your inspiration, your laughter, your sanity!
You would never say how much it bothers u when I'm drunk or how much it bothers you when I state an opinion.. you think I would never know! BUt I see it in your eyes, I know I'm your dissapointment, and NO I'm not ok with that! BUt it hurts more than anything to know that I'll never be remembered, I'll only be an aquaintance, I'll only be ... just another face!!!
Practice will end soon and I will no longer be the one you look down upon! I'll simply be another lost cause! ANother drug user another stupid scavanger who'll will stay in this city and rot FOREVER!
APPARENTLY THEY WERE RIGHT WHEN THEY TOLD YOU TO STAY AWAY FROM ME! I'M NOTHING BUT TROUBLE!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry I couldnt be anything for any of you...saltatrix!
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[11 May 2005|05:31pm] |
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As Benefit got older he started to realize
That everybodies smiles was just jealousy in disguise.
If he turned his back how is that a knife will be in it?
Drama face to face in any place
No one would begin it.
Cuz they knew,
What this kid had been through,
Nothing nice,
Fed sacrifice off of life's menu.
And things lately were starting to get crazy.
And if they stuck around, maybe, his mom would lose the baby.
So they broke out, heading down south on route,
This kid was still acting wild, thought he was tough no doubt.
Dealt a difficult hand,
But he had to play with it,
Emotionally disturbed and the kid never quit it.
Immediately took charge, runnin' his new neighborhood.
Makes me laugh thinkin when he build forts from wood.
And if anybody touched him, then thats their ass,
If anybody fronted, to the creek they get cashed.
School, everybody saying "who's the new kid?"
"I heard he's from Chicago last week know what he did?"
Such and such, that's how rumors get started.
But at lunch actin all retarded,
Eating Captain Crunch.
Thought he was funny,
Little dummy,
Makin a scene, lookin happy on the outside, but inside mean.
Lot of anger built up from things in the past,
Such an unreal life,
Reality hard to grasp.
Thats the life in my memory embedded in my brain, as he started growing up things started to change........................
**Compliments of HASTE**
live it, love it
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Prom was last night and despite the getting stepped on super hard and dancing to gay music, I had a good time! I'm really glad Jackieface was there through dinner, she's my stability! Although the end of the night turned out super scary and worry some for all of us (well me) I don't think I could ever forget it!
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Its the eyes, "the" look!
They can read my mind, forshadow all my actions...
They know how to destroy my strengths and confront my weaknesses!
...ALL IN TIME!....
Thats what I wish I could say,it never occrred to me that being the "thinker" that I am, noone of that stamina would be able to tear me apart, especially YOU! Never have I wanted to hurt somthing so much... when you smile, I wish for only a second I could make you IMPERFECT! I wish for one second you would know what love is. Not just obiedience and sex! I wish you could realize how manipulative you are and that I hate you with every breath in my body!!!!!
YOu let it happen it ALL fell apart!!!!!!!
*************************************************************************** *Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere in bars n cars, sidewalks stores EVERYWHERE! Theres NO escape, I'm Gods lonely man!*
Once there was a little kid named Benefit walked around town with a frown faced down lookin bent.
Had problems inside his little sister just died, keep your head up little man all you got is your pride.
He says the world doesn't want me and neither does my daddy, he'd rather get drunk and puff blunts than have a family.
That's real and aint nothin realer than that,the world is much colder than the steel of a gatt.
With that he moved on, he fought to stay strong, in this cold world to stay warm he put a jacket on made of 100% pain. The label said the only way to wash it was to stand under rain.
But he still was cold,the other kids were old, all he really wanted in life was jems and gold and he'd be set, gettin fine girls with barettes, see him with a boom box and Fat Boys' cassettes.
If he got into a fight he'd throw down but he's a little skinny kid about 70lbs. And he had a loud mouth so nobody stepped to him, but I guess if they would of, well I guess that he'd do'em!
But it didn't get to that this little aristocrat trying to live fat smashing mail boxes with bats. Running wild thorugh the streets his mouth would make beats, used to play football in the mud with baseball cleats.
Thats the life in my memory imbedded in my brain, as he started growin things started to change!
*Who has the right to know, my lifes a steady flow, what can say whats right or wrong for me ooh*
If you know it, then you know then rest is yet to come!!!!!!
For Danny n Sasha stay strong!
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